like a heartbeat, drives you mad.

i was inspired by vero- as i always am- and decided to let you know what im scared of. 

i'm scared of lightning. i'm like convinced im going to get hit by one of those shits someday. so i take every preventative measure possible.

i'm scared of the dark, which sucked because i used to live in a room with no windows, no natural light. so every night i would terrify myself to sleep kinda. 

i'm scared of my wedding day, which i dont really plan on happening since i dont like the institution of marriage (i'm ~*so romantic*~) so it'll be more of like a celebration of love party,  but anyway i just dont know how i would have my parents in the same room and it would cause me too much anxiety. 

i'm scared i'll never figure out what i want to do in life.

i'm scared i'll never find something i truly care about. whether it be a person, a passion, anything. not that i dont care about/love people already, but chu know what i mean. 

i'm scared of pregnancy. the stuff that shit does to your body freaks me out. and birthing is gross.

i'm scared i'll never be able to take care of my mom like she has taken care of me. love that bitch.

also im scared of heights and taking off in airplanes jussayin'. 

I'm scared of everything. I'm scared of what I saw, I'm scared of what I did, of who I am, and most of all I'm scared of walking out of this room and never feeling the rest of my whole life the way I feel when I'm with you. (dirty dancing reference. if you didnt catch it, you should probably stop reading this blog.)

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